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Thanks summer.

I’d like to take a minute to give a big thanks to summer in all her glory and heat.

I wish I could share all of the amazing and fun moments you gave me but mystery is sexy and not disclosing e v e r y t h i n g online has to still stand for something right?

But really, summer I’d like to thank you for all your awkward tan lines, farmers market trips, tequila, late nights, karaoke nights, visits from friends, visits to friends, brunches, for introducing me to rock climbing and just overall reminding me that life is fun.

You see I have this chronic problem with making things not fun. No I’m serious, like I make life not fun for myself and honestly probably for those in my close vicinity.  I worry and stress and pull myself out of the present moment to be somewhere else- all the time. If this summer taught me anything it taught me to try my hardest to not do that.

To remember this summer and my newfound personal wisdom and revelation I decided that I’d get a tattoo – yes me- a tattoo! If you know me I’ve never ever, ever thought I’d get one because I hate needles and I mean hate them. I’ve passed out too many times when I have to do anything involving them. But, I felt inspired and more than that I felt a little invincible (and that’s really what Summer is all about right?).

I decided that for my 26th birthday I’d do the deed, problem was… I was indecisive. Surprising, I know- sometimes it could take me an hour to just pick out a new hair product or soap. Anyway, I couldn’t decide what I wanted so I just went with both ideas and ended up ‘all tatted up’ or at least that’s what the tattoo artist told me when we wrapped up my 13-minute tattoo session.


Now I’d like to take a moment to introduce all of you to these new friends,


Aren’t they little and great. I think they are and really- that’s all that matters. And yes… I can cover them up with watches or bracelet for future potential job interviews.

Here is what they mean to me and yes this is the short version. In tradition there is alot of meaning behind both but I tried to give a brief description for the purpose that I get a little embarrassed talking about personal stuff like that out-loud or on the keyboard.


The circle: first it reminds me that I’m not stuck, that I’m not in a stagnant place like a straight line but that life comes full circle and is always evolving and changing. It also represents ‘karma’ to me and reminds me that what goes around comes around and to just always be nice and accepting of the moment.

The 3 lines: well the 3 lines represent identity and past, present and future. It reminds me that what is important is the here and the now but that all three, past present and future all shape me. It reminds me to make smart choices and that my identity is mine. Each day, however mundane is helping shape whatever that is. It reminds me to trust myself and be present.

And that is my overly wordy explanation of that. Do you have a tattoo? Do you want a tattoo? If so what and what to do they mean to you?

Also, I just really want to stess how much I am thanking summer for those awkward tan lines.

Hope that September is treating each of you well and that fall is easing itself slowly into your lives. I’m personally ecstatic for sweaters, scarves, boots and hot things and yes I’m going to go there- pumpkins. I know, it’s sooo trendy to love fall but I just do. It’s my season circa 1987 bitches.




Everyone is everything

Today everyone is everything. Bloggers, writers, painters, photographers, comedians, advocates and humanitarians. For the most part this is a good thing for mankind, it means people are seeing the importance and beauty in things. It also means collectively we are believing in ourselves and putting it all out there. That’s pretty cool.

 Cool as in… way to go humans!

At the same time I find it a little trendy, a little generic and most of all impossible to know what or how to create anything your own. Now I know that everything in the world has been done, and that we don’t just come up with our own ways, but yet re-discover them. Still, from reality TV stars who become Food Network faces to blogging sensations gone book authors—    how do you know what is ‘right’ for you, how do you pick something to be really good at?

I’m one of those people who believe that it’s better to be really good at one thing rather than dabbling in everything. But in a time/society where everyone is everything how do you know which path is for you? How do you choose and choose well enough that you believe in yourself?

I don’t know the answers to these questions, but I really wish I did.

Commitment, is the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself. In 2011 when we are all engaging ourselves in multiple tasks and things all day long how do you truly develop the right areas of your life? Yeah, I know discipline but that’s so much easier said than done.  I have this new neighbor who is about the same age as me and into everything trendy, cool and about filmmaking- likes to write, likes to direct, likes to act, likes to film, but also really likes to paint, and dabble in sculpture, music and fashion trends. Is it just me but doesn’t that sound extremely exhausting. I don’t really think that a person can fully succeed in all of those areas. Shouldn’t we learn about ourselves, ask ourselves the hard questions – really get to know ourselves and then devote our time, energy and focus to one creative outlet or purpose? 

Am I totally wrong here? Am I just some weird type of person who can only handle one thing at time and that having 5 or 6 different creative outlets/passions etc… is totally normal and healthy? Again, I’m not talking hobbies, I’m talking things that define us: I am a writer. I am a cook. I am a seamstress. I am a photographer, a painter, a sculpture, a comedian, an advocate.

I’m not sure about all of you, but in 40 years when I look back on my life I want to be able to define myself, and what I did or tried to do. I don’t want those lines to be blurry—I want them clear and concise and without a doubt. I was a/an __________ something. Maybe that dash will be filled with wife, mother, friend or maybe it will be filled with something else like encourager, thinker, writer or chef — who knows. I can’t tell the future but I can help direct my present. I hope that I choice wisely, have the courage to try, to take risks and have the strength to accept rejection, I hope that I never give up, never settle and never decided that blurry lines and lots of hobbies can take the place of hard-work, dedication and knowing myself

“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.” – M. Scott Peck