there are 39 days until my 25th birthday. this is important because today i realized something, something big (something big for me). after getting to spend 4 days with one of my newest, dearest and sweetest best friends… i had to inevitably say goodbye. i’m not good at goodbyes and get a little stuck in my head. none the less i dropped her off at the airport, said goodbye and started my drive back to Santa Fe.
on my way home and in the process of getting a little teary eyed i felt weak. feeling weak is not a new feeling for me, not even close. my whole life other people and thought or assumed (or whatever) that i was weak. this lead me down a path to pretty much think that i was (weak?NBD!). as a result i am constantly trying to be stronger.
wait for it….. on my drive home today i realized 39 days before my 25th birthday that ‘in my weakest moment, i am strong’. whhhhattt?! it’s true! maybe that makes sense to you and maybe it doesn’t. but it means something to me and i feel like it will be a theme for my 25th year. ‘in my weakest moment, i am strong’. i’ve really never understood that saying until this afternoon. most of the time in my ‘moment of weakness’ in my tears or my emotions i assume that is my weakness coming out, but today- today i felt like it was a symbol of my strength the strength that i get up and try for every day.
ahhh, relization is the new bliss.