A few days ago I turned 27. That could either sound old or young to you but to me it’s old(ish).
My whole life I’ve wanted to be 28 so I’m happy that I’m almost there. I’ve realized that as time goes by and the years keep coming I never ‘arrive’ at an age or a stage of life.
I used to imagine that’s what growing up was like, super solid life stages that made you happy and smiley all the time. Thanks shows like Boy Meets Works and Growing Pains but it’s not like that at all.
Growing up is hard for me because I try really hard to be the most put together and responsible person I can be. That gets a little exhausting.
On paper I understand the idea that just wanting the next thing doesn’t = happiness but it’s hard for my mind to grasp. I’m allowing myself to do things out of order this year and to remind myself to live up to my own expectations not others.
I hope to trust myself a bit more with that this year. I hope to really come into my own, take risks and be okay in that middle ground. I read this affirmation today that I hope to remember each day this year- “I choose to see this delay as a bigger yes on the way.”
Just one more quote and I’m done,
“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” – John Lennon
I love this, it’s the first time I’ve read it and it just is something I will be referring back to for my 27th year. I think to often I get scared and retreat a little from life and that leads me to feel bad about myself. But if you think about it, there is nothing to be scared of…. That’s the whole point of life to figure it out and you know I would just rather do that in a loving and passionate way then from a place if fear. So, until next year on August 18 I hope to reject the fear I feel of life, of rejection and of not ‘arriving’. I hope to accept more patience, thoughtfulness and dedication to myself and my loved ones.
I’ve apparently waited my whole life for 28 so I hope to arrive there a more loving and self accepting person.
Farmers Market fun on last saturday, loved the very mini Zozobra they had out and about. Everyone else seemed to
^^Had to snap a few shots of the animals, they were so sweet last weekend- I think they new it was my birthday!^^
Loved spending the afternoon at Ten Thousand Waves… spa day anyone?
^^On my actual birthday I asked if Seth would make me dinner and we could just spend time at home, it was perfect!^^
I asked for, poached cod with fresh herbs and caramelized mushrooms/potatoes with a kale salad. Seth really is such a great cook and it all came out perfect!