Archive for April, 2014


On a personal note life has been really rough lately.

The kind of rough were you literally feel like your drowning while having both feet on solid ground.  I’m not sure if I’ll ever get the hang of  ‘letting it go’ because I just let my stress and life’s pressures add till I break. I was thinking today that I hate social media in times like these because all it shows me is the best, the best of someone’s day, the funny moment, the perfect dinner or cake, vacation or outfit… it always makes me feel like 1. I have to do everything and do it all super well (plus trendy and cute) and 2. That my life is less fun, less cool and that kinda makes me fell like…I fail.

That suuucckkss.

While I am a self identified people pleaser, pleasing people can be the worst thing ever. Especially when said people have nothing but negative things to say anyway.  Sometimes I wish I was a big ball of happy energy and I just could deflect all the crap but sadly… I eat it up to the point were I feel sad and defeated.

I’m finding it so hard to find the balance of myself and the balance of the person that so many other people are wanting and needing me to be—it’s such a perplexing idea to me that we have to wear so many different hats. I’m under the notion that I (we) can do lots of things but we can’t do them all very well, but when life forces you to give more attention to an area you don’t want to be giving attention to– then what? What do you do? I certainly don’t know what to do but tread water and hope for the best.

This plan isn’t working out so well and frankly I’m not sure that my back up energy source will last much longer. I get nervous when I think about the idea that maybe what’s best for me isn’t what society says it is.  It’s scary because if I’ve grown accustom to living a certain way, working a certain way then to break that notion and head a different direction is like… THE SCARIEST THING I COULD DO. Haha, I’m sorry that I’m rambling but I just needed to do it. I just know that I feel exhausted and defeated and like all the “travelers” of life are just going to get the best of me.

I’d like to say I’d appreciate some advice on balance and letting things go but I don’t really want any advice. I just want to be heard and to be understood in my confusion, exhaustion and slight defeat. I’d like to know I’m not alone in thinking that what we need more than balance is to feel 100% being true to ourselves and our needs- even if that means we can’t make changes right away. I just want to feel like this super ideal that we’ve all created of life and our own lives is addressed as only part of the truth.

Focusing on the good moments is the treasure of life but sharing in the painful and confusing moments can bring just as much joy. Sigh…

Thanks for listening.


P.S. A traveler is a person who is sorta crazy and sucks the life energy right out of you. You can reference the term to 1. Fringe and 2. The Vampire Diaries.- Thanks


mondays are for pizza and april is for poetry. did you know that april is national poetry month? well it is and mondays are just made for pizza for the sole fact they come after the weekend and almost always are totally exhausting.

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seth and i recently found our new favorite pizza place in santa fe. we have been putting off trying it for some reason and were very pleasantly surprised at how good it was. pizza centro is our new favorite. we tried the central park with no sundried tomoates. the crust is perfect and the fresh basil on top is soo good. plus it’s not super greasy which is always a plus in my book.

they have 2 locations in santa fe, one down town by yin yang chinese and one by the regal 14 movie theater. we prefer the little space closer to down town.

so, just go try it okay- you won’t regret it and honestly who doesn’t love pizza?

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and to indulge in poetry month, the most famous poem about pizza…

A Pizza the Size of the Sun – Jack Prelutsky

I’m making a pizza the size of the sun,
a pizza that’s sure to weigh more than a ton,
a pizza too massive to pick up and toss,
a pizza resplendent with oceans of sauce.I’m topping my pizza with mountains of cheese,
with acres of peppers, pimentos, and peas,
with mushrooms, tomatoes, and sausage galore,
with every last olive they had at the store.My pizza is sure to be one of a kind,
my pizza will leave other pizzas behind,
my pizza will be a delectable treat,
that all who love pizza are welcome to eat.The oven is hot, I believe it will take
a year and a half for my pizza to bake.
I can hardly wait til my pizza is done,
my wonderful pizza the size of the sun.

peace out,


lets detox.


I love this quote.  It’s a reminder for me to slow down and choose happiness, to choose what’s best for me in that moment (which if I were to be honest, does not come naturally yet).

I’ve come a long way to accept quotes like this for truth—I used to be a little alot gym and food obsessed and did it because I wasn’t happy with my body. Over the last several years I’ve realized I should exercise and eat well because I love my body, not because I hate it. And from there… it’s been a journey to say the least .

I wanted to share that 6 months ago I did a legitimate cleanse, The Avalon Cleanse and it helped propel me into a healthier state for both body and mind. I was a little shocked that it was able to do so because I’ve tried many programs listed in magazines or books. This Cleanse was different because Rachel actually coaches you and that just takes things to a new level of accountability as well as empowerment. She helped me understand why the things we were doing in the cleanse were important and for me that made the world of difference.

I’ve always been a ‘why’ person and if I don’t have a good answer for the ‘why’ in something it’s hard for me to buy in or really just understand it.

Rachel gave me the why behind everything. She taught and  encouraged me to do my own reading and watching through books and documentaries- I appreciated this because it helped me feel like in the end I was free to make my own decision on the topic or issue. I’m sorta all about formulating my own thoughts on things so I ate up the recommended reading and documentary list!

 The Avalon Cleanse is seriously so well structured that it makes it easy to follow, even though you are actually going through some major detox steps.  Her supplement list is to be frank, boss.  You can tell that everything is very well researched and she is completely knowledgeable about everything in the cleanse.

If you have ever thought about doing a detox or cleanse I recommend taking the opportunity to get connected with Rachel and to actually go for it. Doing a legitimate cleanse with supplements and coaching was so much more rewarding than anything I have every tried from a magazine or book. The best part is that now I feel like I have gained a health advocate that I can have further coaching sessions with.

For me action is easy when I am engaging with passionate people and Rachel Avalon is totally passionate about what she is doing and to be honest it’s contagious. From that you get this well rounded approach to your detox that isn’t all about weight loss or food, it’s about you and your overall health. As well as environmental impact and just awesome facts and knowledge that help you make wiser and healthier decision every day.

So, there it is. I never want to be pushy because everyone is at their own stages of health and need to do what they need to do for themselves but I’m about to do another mini (15 day) cleanse and it got me thinking about how much I wanted to share with you the impact this one has had on me. I’ll say it again, if you are able to do a paid/coached cleanse I RECOMMEND THIS ONE! Hands down.

If you have specific questions for me- just let me know but here are all the different ways you can learn more about Rachel Avalon and The Avalon Cleanse.

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