hello there, it’s friday and i had a date. a date with myself!
seth is at work tonight all night so i decided to take advantage of the much needed introvert time. got some good white wine and some peppers! yum. i’m convinced that if i didn’t have seth i’d never eat an actual meal- don’t worry i threw a salad in there too to balance it all out.
my night has consisted of some one on one time with jillian michaels, whole foods shopping with some creepers, TVD marathon and some of my favorite foods. oh, did i mention i’ve wasted countless hours on pinterest as well… oops!
i have to remember that sometimes it’s nice to do nothing, have no plans and enjoy some of your favorite things. missing my love but happy to have a little bit of chill time tonight.
much needed- cheers!
weekend update: this weekend my parents were in town, it was really great to spend some time with them and of course eat some ‘home-made by Mom and Dad food’. While my Mom was here she helped me get a few things planted in our new little yard. It’s a little late to be planting but we still picked a few great things. Snap peas, Little Jack pumpkins, shiesdo peppers, and a mix of some pretty flowers (marigolds and cosmos, I have always loved marigolds). I’m so banking on my little pumpkins to grow because duh- Falls my favorite! I’ve never had a huge green thumb and honestly get a little bothered when my hands are dirty- but I’m committing to this gardening thing even if it means multiple hand washings to get it done. Here’s a picture of the goods- still all brand new. I’ll have to do a follow up if… I mean when things start to take off.
there are 39 days until my 25th birthday. this is important because today i realized something, something big (something big for me). after getting to spend 4 days with one of my newest, dearest and sweetest best friends… i had to inevitably say goodbye. i’m not good at goodbyes and get a little stuck in my head. none the less i dropped her off at the airport, said goodbye and started my drive back to Santa Fe.
on my way home and in the process of getting a little teary eyed i felt weak. feeling weak is not a new feeling for me, not even close. my whole life other people and thought or assumed (or whatever) that i was weak. this lead me down a path to pretty much think that i was (weak?NBD!). as a result i am constantly trying to be stronger.
wait for it….. on my drive home today i realized 39 days before my 25th birthday that ‘in my weakest moment, i am strong’. whhhhattt?! it’s true! maybe that makes sense to you and maybe it doesn’t. but it means something to me and i feel like it will be a theme for my 25th year. ‘in my weakest moment, i am strong’. i’ve really never understood that saying until this afternoon. most of the time in my ‘moment of weakness’ in my tears or my emotions i assume that is my weakness coming out, but today- today i felt like it was a symbol of my strength the strength that i get up and try for every day.
ahhh, relization is the new bliss.