posted on: October 14, 2014

Hi, let’s get real for a minute (or 5):

I have a few things to share. It’s a total mix of positive and negative, random and relevant.

But, the good news first. I got a new job! I start on the 20th and I’m thrilled it’s one of those things that I feel really excited about- like maybe one of the only times I’ve felt challenged and excited about a job opportunity. I’m only 27 so I’m hoping it’s okay to just feel something like this now. It actually strangely enough reminds me of 10th grade Biology, where my teacher- Dr. Cox told me “Britt (my maiden name) you make good grades and don’t really try, you really need to apply yourself, if you apply yourself then I’d really be impressed.” When he said this to me then I was offended and I totally blew it off because my life was basically about grades and mine were great with minimal effort. So, like what’s the issue? I’ve thought about that exact phrase he said numerous times throughout my life and it’s only recently (as in the two weeks) that I feel like it really clicked for me. I think what Dr. Cox was saying was really about my intention and passion in what I was doing. He knew I didn’t really care. He knew I wasn’t committed, that my mind was really anywhere but where it needed to be.

He could see that I wasn’t super interested in what I was doing and while I was still able to succeed- it wasn’t enough. He could see that if I was able to apply more of myself and found even a little passion or focused intention in my ‘work’ I’d be so much more satisfied and in a way successful. Boom right?! Ha, well at least for me it’s been a pretty eye opening realization. So all that to say- that’s how I feel now. I feel committed, focused and challenged in a very exciting way and this is a new feeling for me.  It may just be that happy honeymoon period but I hope it’s not. I hope and want to stay just as excited and focused. In my gut I feel like this is an opportunity my life was supposed to lead to. In the cliché it feels ‘meant to be’.

So there’s that! I got a new job and it’s starting soon and I’m thrilled.

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On the flip side I feel so burnt out and tired emotionally and physically. I feel like 27 is a hard year. Just the other day I literally ate candy corn for lunch, afterwards I didn’t so much feel bad for the sugar high and lack of nutritional content as I just felt old (please note that I know 27 isn’t incredibly old but it’s very adult in age). I felt my real age of 27 and not my mental age of somewhere around 19-22.  I realized that even though I don’t feel very grown up I am- and I need to start making better decisions for myself. Like maybe not eating candy for lunch or having that last glass of champagne or waking up approx. 16 min before I need to be somewhere. Or choosing TV over more important things. And, yes I really do choose cheesy teen TV shows over more important things. Sorry bout it.

In that moment I felt exhausted and I also felt like ‘of course’ you feel exhausted, you stay up way too late, only really intermittently eat healthy, zone out with TV or the computer and the list could really go on. Like, duh no wonder you feel like this!

On the brink of my new opportunity I feel like I’m ready to grow up a little more. Say no more often and make choices that will benefit me not just satisfy me. It’s hard, once you leave your parents house the cool thing about being an adult is you can do whatever you want but at a certain point you also have to actually grow up. It feels like a rut I’ve fallen back into- doing whatever I want and not what’s best for me. But it’s a rut that makes me feel scattered and run down. I need to really shake off this funk and get back to applying myself to my life, my work and to myself.

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is that life isn’t as laid out and simple as I once imagined (Who knew!). Especially for someone like me- I have a lot of thoughts, emotions, beliefs and past experiences that  are constantly rolling around in my head. Those things make life a little more murky, it makes that rut feel more comfortable, but deep down I know it’s not right for me now and I’m ready to step up to life and really just put forth my very best effort.

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I now understand the difference between being distracted and not trying and getting say an A- (an easy A) on a paper and really being disciplined and interested in learning and putting my best work forward and getting an A+. While there isn’t a huge difference in grade there is a huge difference in self respect and satisfaction in myself and my work. And now at age 27, I think the difference is worth it.

Who knew that 10th grade Biology could become a life lesson? I certainly didn’t but am grateful that those words have stuck with me all these years.

Thanks for sticking with me on this one, it was a novel!

-xx

 

Rookie Mag. Rec…

posted on: September 24, 2014

Hi,

I needed to share this article with all of you on my lunch break because I just realized today how useful it really is and then realized the fact that I’ve probably referenced it about… 12 times in the past 2 years.

The article is from Rookie Mag (which is totally great by the way) and if you haven’t checked them out you need to get on that stat. I’m 27 and still find about everything they post super relevant to my ‘adult’ life.

Case and point, this article called How to Look Like You Weren’t Crying in Less Than 5 Minutes, it was written by Krista and Illustrated by Marjainez.

Here is the link;

http://www.rookiemag.com/2012/03/how-to-look-like-you-werent-just-crying-in-less-than-five-minutes/

First off, I feel like me and Krista could be best friends and that we are sorta the same person. Secondly, this is some real great advice if you are a cry(er) like me and apparently Krista. Like I’ve honestly used these steps about 12 times in public places. The fake sneeze at the end is pretty key for you to pull this off, if not then people will start to pick up on you.

SO, book mark this, commit it to memory, copy it down, snap a shot with your iPhone- W H A T E V E R

I’m just saying is pretty dang useful on days where you have to be a functioning adult and literally want to burst into tears in a moments notice, like today for instance (but that is another story).

 

Cool, all in all I sorta hope your not a cry(er) like me because it’s sometimes like juggling emotional water bottles all day every day BUT, want to shout out to Krista. I feel you girl and thanks for the tips!

Emotional in Santa Fe,

Jane

 

 

 

 

 

 

posted on: September 23, 2014

Happy 1st day of Autumn or Fall or whatever you choose to call it. While this may be totally a ‘basic white girl’ moment I don’t care because it’s been my favorite season my whole life- the chilly days, grey and moody skies, sweaters and scarves, hot drinks and dark nights full of time for self reflection and memories.

Sigh, cheers to the best of the best seasons! Here are a few words and pictures for the direction I’d like the next several months to go. To adventure, exploration, happiness, spur of the moment(ness), hot drinks and of course lots of reflection time.

Have a hot toddy for me!

-xoxo

andiefall

Martini Royale

posted on: September 19, 2014

Cheers to the last weekend of summer! Do you have any fun plans? Seth and I will be meeting my parents for the New Mexico State Fair in Albuquerque and I can’t wait. I love the fair, I’ll have to share some of my favorite things about it next week.

I wanted to share one last summer cocktail with you before I turn to my love of Hot Toddy’s and the like. This cocktail is called a Martini Royale and it’s divine, especially in summer, especially for sipping in the sunshine. It’s so refreshing and fancy in a way- or at least I feel fancy while making and drinking them. It’s a pretty classic drink but I got my recipe from one of my favorite chiefs Jamie Oliver. I tried this at one of his restaurants in Scotland and feel in love.

Hope you have a fun weekend plan to say so long to summer, you should add this drink to your list because I promise it won’t disappoint you and it might just become one of your summer favorites too.

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Ingredients

  • Cubed ice
  • Fresh squeezed lime juice
  • Lime wedge
  • Fresh mint leaves
  • 1 part Prosecco
  • 1 ½ shots of Martini Bianco

 

How to Mix

  • Fill wine glass or goblet with ice
  • Add 1 ½ shots of Martini Bianco to glass
  • Add Prosecco to fill glass, then stir two times. It’s important to not over mix so make sure you just bring the Martini Bianco from the bottom of the glass to mix with the Prosecco
  • Squeeze juice of half a lime into the wine glass and then add lime wedge. *Note you should squeeze your lime pulp facing up to get some of the essential oils from the skin into the drink mixture.
  • Place mint in a bunch and top it off in the glass as a garnish

how to deal with anger and not burst into tears.

posted on: September 17, 2014

i was thinking of the word anger and what it really means. like, what does it mean to really be angry? a common definition relays the feeling to annoyance and displeasure. that seems right, i do feel both of those things while ‘angry’ but why do we feel that way towards others or situations, why do we care? i did a little follow up and when we express/feel anger we are using the limbic system in the brain and not the cerebral cortex. the cerebral cortex is the thinking part of our brain while the limbic system is basically our emotional center.

when we experience life around us our brains send that incoming data to our amygdala- it’s there that it is decided if it gets sent to our emotional centers or to our cerebral cortex. if any of the incoming data triggers an emotional response the decision to move to the cerebral cortex is overridden an the information is kept in our limbic system (emotional center).

when this happens that part of the brain feels hijacked and a flood of hormones  are released- this causes a person to move into flight or fight mode. it can take on average 20 minutes before a person can become calm again.

WOW. i’m not sure if i knew this stuff before and have forgotten or if i am just learning it now- but this totally makes me want to deal with (and feel more capable of dealing with) any and all of my emotional triggers, so that minor daily things don’t send my body into fight or flight mode.

10 big emotional triggers that even marketing teams try to attack or attract us with are:

1. fear          6. competition

2. guilt         7. instant gratification

3. trust         8. leadership

4. value        9. trend-setting

5. belonging       10. time

 

while i was taking a close look at this information i felt more empowered that i am capable of stopping anger before it goes to far. i hate the way anger makes me feel and often times i could go on and on in circles with it finding it hard to let go. i feel empowered to be aware if someone or something is trying to make me feel one of those 10 ways- to sit back analyze what kind of place that is coming from (healthy or not) and stop it from triggering an emotional response.

it’s ‘cool’ for me to realize that there are points in our accepting and processing of life where we can choose to help ourselves, to be mindful (now that word makes so much more sense) and not to send our bodies and mind into hyperdrive.

the other thing we need to be mindful of is not using our ‘triggers’ as an excuse and not allowing them to turn us into victims of situations. for this i think it’s supers important to be aware but not engrossed in our triggers/emotions.

“our brains create powerful associations between things that hurt us and whatever happened to be occurring when we got hurt.” Martha Beck

so our triggers help explain not excuse.

“it makes us responsible for recognizing triggering situations so we can change our unconscious reactions.” Martha Beck

today after thinking, reading and writing about this mindfulness has taken on a whole new and better understanding for me. it was as if a light bulb went of ‘like whoa… it all makes more sense now’. i now feel so much more capable to try and master my anger, even anxiety with mindfulness. i a committing myself to start by repeating these loving-kindness phrases whenever anything comes up.

“may i be healthy. may i be happy. may i be free of suffering.” I’m confident that over time extending kindness to myself in emotional moments will help me reduce unwanted emotions that can lead me into more hard core anxiety.

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acupuncture

posted on: September 15, 2014

As I have mentioned before I am a pretty anxious person and have been dealing with it more intensely in the past several years.

I wanted to to share tonight about how I have been handling it as of late… acupuncture.

 

Acupuncture is sort of a crazy thing because you don’t really know how it works or why but it does- and for stress/anxiety it has helped me tremendously.

Right now you could say I am having a ’20 something life crisis’ and going through alot of work related transition. I’ve also been informed of something called ‘Saturn’s Return’ to either add to the list or help explain all of is chaos. This lack of stability normally would be grounds for me to…. break now utterly and completely with stress, worry and anxiety. But I’m not. I would attribute that at least mostly to acupuncture.

When I go to acupuncture it feels like my body is able to release alot of negative ‘static’. That might sound odd but it’s the best way I can explain it. It feels like all the anxiety is static and acupuncture just is a way that lets it all go. It’s pretty amazing actually.

I think more realistically it helps re-set my para synthetic system to help my body not be in flight for flight mode all the time.

Anyway, dealing with anxiety is trivial to our health. Since I have been able to actually get ride of some of mine I’ve found the importance of doing so- I can really feel such a difference in my physical and mental state when I am able to properly get rid of my anxiety. Because of this I wanted to share my experience with you and tell you that my whole life up to this point I NEVER thought I would be able to even do acupuncture because I have a very real fear of needles. BUT I can do it and literally if I can do it then really anyone can. The worst of is feel sorta like a sting for like 2 seconds and then that pain is gone but for the most part the needles don’t create any pain, it’s just certain spots where that sting like pain can happen.

So if you are able go check out acupuncture and if you live in Santa Fe and need a recommendation let me know!

Cheers,

P.S. right now my anxiety free plan includes acupuncture, cat and dog therapy :)

 

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About Alex

posted on: September 8, 2014

When I thought about who I wanted to write about for my series ‘people who inspire me’ I was a little blocked. So finally I decided to do Meryl Streep. Mostly this decision was made because there is a quote from her that is floating around the internet right now. Here it is.

“I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.”

It’s a great quote and while I do still admire Meryl I think I will save her for another time.

Last week I saw a move called ‘About Alex’ – half way through the movie I decided that this was/is who inspires me. People who make moves like this one. Come to find out we got to do a Q/A via Skype with the 28 year old director (Jesse Zwick who was both the writer/director) after the movie. I was beyond impressed. This was his first time directing and he just did a stellar job. Not to mention that feeling you get when you realize someone is your age give or take five years and accomplishing much larger goals than you are. Or in a less cynical way they are really killing it making their dreams come true.

Back to the story, the movie itself was full of emotion and real life humor. It’s comedic timing was impeccable… truly. So I’m going to pitch it now… If you have the chance GO SEE THIS MOVIE.

I thought it as just fantastic and was something that both moved me and inspired me. People are comparing it to the move ‘The Big Chill’ but it’s just so relevant for twenty somethings that I would literally scream off the rooftops for them to see it, you know if I wasn’t super introverted and shy.
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There is just something so cool about people in there 20′s and early 30′s really just going for their dreams and hitting it out of the park. I think that is what inspired me the most… the fact that it can be done. That some people succeed at it. It rustles something up inside of me, my creative self that doesn’t really know which direction to go. It makes me want to be more focused and just give it my best effort.

Cheers to that I guess,

Oh- here is the trailer

xox
Jane

Hello September!

posted on: September 1, 2014

Hi friends, it’s September! Like most people I’m a little astonished that it’s here already and honestly do have a slight anticipation for fall. I thought it would be fun to share my September playlist with you all in case anyone was looking for some new/old songs to add to their on collection.

I don’t create a playlist every month but try to do it at least once a season.
Here is my September list- please have in mind that I recently attended a bluessgrass concert and spent a few days in the mountains. This play list is pretty folky so if that’s your thing cool and if it’s not my apologies!

1. Lilac Wine covered by Miley Cyrus
2. 21st of May by Nickel Creek
3. Don’t think Twice, It’s All Right covered by Joan Baez
4. Dance Dance covered by Mumford and Sons
5. Dear John covered by Norah Jones and Ryan Adams
6. Live and Die by The Avett Brothers
7. Keep it Loose, Keep it Tight by Amos Lee
8. Fare Thee Well (Dink’s Song) by Oscar Isaac, Marcus Mumford
9. To Ohio by The Low Anthem
10. Heart’s on Fire by Passenger
11. Trouble by American Authors
12. Ramona by Night Beds
13. Budapest by George Ezra
14. Wagon Wheel by Old Crow Medicine Show
15. No Concern of Yours by Punch Brothers
16. Landslide covered by Dixie Chicks
17. I’ll Go On Downtown covered by Cory Morrow and Tanya Cargill
18. Three Days by Pat Green
19. Funtimes in Babylon by Father John Misty
20. Sun, Arise by Phosphorescent
21. Man on Fire by Edward Sharpe and the Magentic Zeros
22. Lady On the Water by Blizen Trapper
23. Hey Doll by Deer Tick
24. Latch-Acoustic by Sam Smith
25. If I Had a Boat by James Vincent McMorrow
26. Come Out of the Woods by Matthew and the Atlas
27. Shine by Benjamin Francis Leftwich
28. FortyFive by Bootstraps

(P.S. I linked the best youtube versions of the songs on the artists name, I found all the songs but one- enjoy!)

I created the playlist on our Spotify account so if you are on there feel free to just listen there. I tried to put the songs in an order that was pleasant for listening but feel free to just try out one you haven’t heard before or something you’ve forgotten about.
On Spotify: sethcolby10 and the playlist is titled September

Like I’ve said before music is magic and when I take the time to make playlists for myself it’s like a nice little gift I can keep giving myself all month.

Cheers!

birthday reflections

posted on: August 21, 2014

A few days ago I turned 27. That could either sound old or young to you but to me it’s old(ish).

My whole life I’ve wanted to be 28 so I’m happy that I’m almost there. I’ve realized that as time goes by and the years keep coming I never ‘arrive’ at an age or a stage of life.

I used to imagine that’s what growing up was like, super solid life stages that made you happy and smiley all the time. Thanks shows like Boy Meets Works and Growing Pains but it’s not like that at all.

Growing up is hard for me because I try really hard to be the most put together and responsible person I can be. That gets a little exhausting.

On paper I understand the idea that just wanting the next thing doesn’t = happiness but it’s hard for my mind to grasp. I’m allowing myself to do things out of order this year and to remind myself to live up to my own expectations not others.

I hope to trust myself a bit more with that this year. I hope to really come into my own, take risks and be okay in that middle ground. I read this affirmation today that I hope to remember each day this year- “I choose to see this delay as a bigger yes on the way.”

Just one more quote and I’m done,

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” – John Lennon

I love this, it’s the first time I’ve read it and it just is something I will be referring back to for my 27th year. I think to often I get scared and retreat a little from life and that leads me to feel bad about myself. But if you think about it, there is nothing to be scared of…. That’s the whole point of life to figure it out and you know I would just rather do that in a loving and passionate way then from a place if fear. So, until next year on August 18 I hope to reject the fear I feel of life, of rejection and of not ‘arriving’. I hope to accept more patience, thoughtfulness and dedication to myself and my loved ones.
I’ve apparently waited my whole life for 28 so I hope to arrive there a more loving and self accepting person.

Cheers,

xoxo
Farmers Market fun on last saturday, loved the very mini Zozobra they had out and about. Everyone else seemed to

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^^Had to snap a few shots of the animals, they were so sweet last weekend- I think they new it was my birthday!^^

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Loved spending the afternoon at Ten Thousand Waves… spa day anyone?

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^^On my actual birthday I asked if Seth would make me dinner and we could just spend time at home, it was perfect!^^

I asked for, poached cod with fresh herbs and caramelized mushrooms/potatoes with a kale salad. Seth really is such a great cook and it all came out perfect!

 

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snack ready chickpeas

posted on: August 13, 2014

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I’m a big snack person, I’m actually a big food person and it’s hard for me to make it through the day without snacks. For that reason I have a long list of some of my ultimate go-to snack foods.

One of my favorite snacks would have to be roasted/baked chick peas. Have you ever had them? To me they are a healthier version of a french fry or a potato chip. Crunchy, slaty, savory… delicious.

***With chickpeas it’s important to drain and rinse them before roasting.

Ingredients

  • 2 (16 ounce) cans chickpeas (garbanzo beans)
  • 1 1/2 tbsp olive oil
  • 1/2 tsp garlic powder
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 2 tsps sesame seeds

Here’s what to do:

  1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees
  2. Drain/rinse chickpeas and dry them off
  3. Roast for 10 minutes then stir them around with a spatula
  4. Roast for 10 more minutes, then remove from the oven and drizzle with olive oil, sprinkle with salt and garlic powder and sesame seeds- stir around until evenly coated with the oil and seasonings
  5. Roast for 20 more minutes
  6. Turn oven off/crack door- let the chickpeas sit on the pan in the oven for 30 minutes

I normally sprinkle a little more seasoning on after they come out of the oven too. I keep mine in a Kerr jar and snack on a handful in the afternoon. When I make this recipe (2 cans) it will normally last 1 week with both me and my husband snacking on them.

Enjoy!

-xox